So happy for the proud new parents!!!

My co-worker (and friend) Melinda and her husband Justin welcomed their first child on 01-20-09. A beautiful baby girl they named Allie Elizabeth. She was 8 lbs and 20 inches long. She was born at 6:32 AM. I am very pleased to share her with everyone and so proud for both of them!!!! They've tried very hard and waited so long for her!!!! I can truly say I don't think there are two more deserving people to become parents!!!

well turning 4 has come and gone....

and what a day it was. I can't believe that 4 years ago I was in that hospital room giving birth to the most amazing thing in my life... I can't believe that 4 years ago in that hospital room I first held the one thing that has made me make so many decisions I wouldn't normally make. The one person on this earth that I would give my life for without thinking twice, the one that I would do anything to protect and most of all do anything to keep happy and healthy. 4 years ago seems like the blink of an eye now.

The changes over the last 4 years are amazing... He's gone from an 8 lb 6 oz 21 3/4 inch bundle of joy to a 38 lb 3 1/2 (don't quote my on height) foot tall walking, talking, opinionated, smart, funny, sweet and sometimes obnoxious little man. I love this little one with all my heart and I can't imagine my life with anything less than him in it. God had a reason for giving me a boy, even though I wasn't prepared for raising one, and I guess now I see why. Life would definately be dull and certainly not as fun. I would never know all about dinosaurs like I do, I would never get to see or hear him do HULK SMASH!!! I would never get to cuddle with him and I would never hear the sweetest question on the face of the earth.... "Mommy, why did God give me to you???" My heart melts when he asks those things. I just say he knew I needed you....

God has blessed my life with him and as much as other things may have me upset from time to time, it's looking back on days like this, especially this one to make me thankful for what I do have. Right now at this moment I have a very healthy little boy who makes my heart full beyond words. We may have our moments where he drives me insane, but I definately wouldn't change a thing about it. Sometimes the best clarity comes when looking back on things. I get now why I have a son... I know why I made the decisions I made... I know that there may not always be a time for remembering the little things. Things get lost in the shuffle of daily life. I don't want to forget what it's like to just watch him sleep or the funny looks he gets on his face. I want to remember those. Life is never certain.... I just want to have those memories etched in my mind forever.


On a more positive note for today, since it was his birthday and he had school, he got to bring in a treat for his class. He decided to take Dinosaur Cookies. They were from Beaverton Bakery and they looked amazing. I can't wait for his cake this Saturday. lol... I brought them into his class where they were having circle time. All of them in their pajamas for their pajama party day and him in a crown for his birthday. He didn't even notice, but he said that all the kids liked their cookies, they sang Happy Birthday to him, and they all gave him lots of hugs. Here's to hoping that the party this Saturday goes just as well.

RESOLUTIONS!

Now generally I don't make them. If I do they generally get broken within a few days. However, this year, I am not giving in. William has become increasingly spoiled and I'm not blaming any one person in particular for this behavior. This is something that has just gone on for too long. William has been dead set on getting something everywhere we go. I don't blame anyone for allowing it to happen. Part of it had to be guilt out of a missing parent and part for just seeing him when they got to. In any event it has made for a very possessive and downright spoiled little one who feels entitled to anything and everything he wants. I am no longer going to allow this to go on and am having to meet this head on. My mother and I have decided that he is no longer going to get something just because he wants it or just because we are somewhere. This has however come with challenges so far. Friday he got upset that he wasn't getting something that he wanted and it was met with a meltdown that you could hear through the entire store. I cringed while at work, knowing that the child who was crying and could be heard by everyone was my own. Great parenting moment there.

On a positive he is getting better. Today we were at the store and I told him he could get a snack and that we weren't going to toys and he didn't once ask for a toy and he got a snack and was happy. He has also gone to bed on his own for the last two nights without anyone having to be there. It's been tough, but I know that if I can't stick this out I will have my sweet boy back. Now if I could just get him to stop calling my "MOOOOM!" and get back to something more preferred like Mommy! :)

Welcome 2009!

Here's to hoping that this year is better than the last and that it brings lots of changes for the better in our lives.